My JuRasSic SuRrOunDiNg

i wiSh he still feEls thE feElings thAt he feLt aT thE beGinNing.. tHe eMotiOns aRe sTiLL fResH in mY mEmOriEs.. hoPe hE wOn’t fOrgEt aBoUt thE cAre aNd aFfEctiOns tHat mAdE thE feELings fOndeR.. cHanGing oNeseLf iS LiKe cHanGing thE wHoLe evEnt..

cOz..

i loVed the whoLe you.. nOt oNly thE wAy yoU look.. thE wAy you aCt.. thE wAy yOu dreSs.. the waY yoU kiSseS mY LipS.. thE wAy yOu hoLd mY hAnd.. thE wAy yOu sAy "i love you" or even the wAy yOu  reSpoNd iMmediaTeLy "iloveyoutoo".. the wAy you do things thAt woULd pleAse my hEart..

bUt aLso thE waY yoU get mAd, the way you shout when frustrated, the way you argue, the way you teases me, the way you cry, the way you make me cry, and even aLL the waYs you mAke thAt keEps me huRting deep dOwn..

i take all of this because i cared and i loved you..

i accept you for who you are..

no matter what happens i will stay beside you..

aNd i wiLL cOntinue being paRt of you..

even until you let go..

you will stay here even only in my heart..

–for the person i love..

sLeEpLeSs niGhtS aRe oVer.. sitting on a chair staring blankly ahead.. wandering minds.. who are awake right now? like me.. thinking over and over.. i have a new one right now.. (no, stupid mouth..).. i have one right now (that’s just perfect).. 10 months in about 5 mins more.. maybe long for others but not for me.. i envy them, them the couples who lasted for years now.. and regretted for the long ones that ended up hating one another..

–>i would like to open my thoughts now. what am i just thinking? ahh.. i remembered, i promise myself to reconcile with the people that i hated and vice versa. and i guess i just did a really great job. except for one. december 31, 2006 in about 10:37pm, a smokey and noisy path, walking with my special someone. just the right timing to spend my new year. i saw my past. our eyes met trying to deny that we absolutely knew one another. it was just obvious. he has company, so am i. so what’s the deal? what did really bother me? is it the fact that we both hurt each others feelings? or the mere truth that our blooming romance ended up to stupid goodbyes? (oOh cOme on!) yes! all of the above.. don’t think me wrong! i don’t want to start all over again. i just wanted to fix things over, to put a period in this foolishness! i wanted to talk to him and apologize. i wanted to bring up friendship even it’s impossible. that’s it. nothing more and nothing less.

<not yet the end>

beLatEd mErRy cHristmAs eBLiwAn..
aT aDvAncE hApPy nEw yEaR..
iNgAt s mGa sUmAsAbOg..
tAyO aY mGbAgO nA pWa sA wOrLd pEaCe..
hAkhAk..
lakAs amAtz..
<aSa.pA.aKo>

wHeW! kKpGod C.A.T nEoN.. uStAh n kEo?! wala mgwa.. nging sobrAng bUsy mE.. uN lng..

Constantly

Nina

I knew it was there
Though I tried to hide it
The feeling just kept on shining through
Haven’t known you that long
So I try to deny it
But the feeling was much too
Much too strong

Could this be love
Deep down inside
Tearing me apart
I feel it in my heart

Constantly, you’re on my mind
Thinking about you all the time
I can’t sleep no matter what I do
I just keep on thinking ’bout you

Why do I feel this way
When I know you have someone
That you’re seeing each and everyday
Should I play this game
Of just being that’s not where I want it to end

How could this be wrong
When it feels so strong
Tearing me apart
I feel it in my heart
No I don’t want to start
No trouble
Between you and I and you lover
But I must tell you what I’m going through
Everytime you walk by
I see love in your eyes

Every Little Thing(He Does Is Magic)

M.Y.M.P

Though I tried before to tell him
All the feelings I have for him in my heart
Everytime that I come near him
I just loose my nerve as I’ve done from the start

(Chorus)
Coz every little thing he does is magic
Every thing he does just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for him goes on

Do I have to tell the story
Of the thousand rainy days since we first met
It’s a big enough umbrella
But it’s always me who ends up getting wet

(Repeat Chorus)

I resolve to call him up
A thousand times a day
And ask him if he’ll marry me
In some old fashioned way
But my silent fears have gripped me
Long before I reached the phone
Long before my tongue has stripped me
Must I always be alone

(Repeat Chorus)

Every little thing
Every little thing he does
Every little thing he does is magic, magic, magic

bakit?
masama bang magmahal ng sobra?

ung tipong nasasaktan ka na
pero sasabihin mo sa sarili mo na,
"ok lang un… iintindihin ko nalang siya…"

ung tipong kahit gusto mong magalit,
at isumbat mo sa kanya ang
inis,
selos,
at tampong nararamdaman mo,
ay di mo magawa
kasi natatakot kang mawala siya sa’yo…

ung tipong magbubulagbulagan ka nalang
kahit sobrang tanga ka na
kasi kitang kita mo na…
para lang sabihin na
wala siya maling nagawa sa’yo…

ung tipong sobrang mahal mo siya
at niisang dahilan
walang pumapasok sa isip mo
na nasasaktan ka na pala niya
kasi di mo kayang iwan siya…

ung tipong alam mo naman
at sigurado ka
sa nararamdaman niyang pagmamahal sa’yo,
kaso natatago ung kaba sa puso mo
na baka may kulang pa sa’yo
at maghanap pa siya ng iba…

ung tipong ayaw mo
mawalan ng tiwala sa kanya
dahil sobrang mahal mo siya
pero di mo maiwasang dumating
ang pangyayari na makakasira
ng malaki mong tiwala sa kanya
tapos bigla ka nalang maguguluhan
at parang ang bigat ng puso mo ng di inaasahan…

ung tipong mahal na mahal mo siya
at walang dahilan kung bakit…

ano nga ba ung sagot dito?
masasabi bang martir ako
o sadyang tanga lng?!..

AKAP
Imago

Nagtatanong
bakit mahirap
sumabay sa agos
ng iyong mundo

Nagtataka
Simple lang naman sana
Ang buhay
Kung ika’y matino

Sabihin sa akin lahat ng lihim mo
Iingatan ko
Ibaling sa akin ang problema mo
kakayanin ko

Pikit mata
kong iaalay
ang buwan at araw
pati pa sapatos kong suot

Nagtatanong
simple lang naman sana
ang buhay
kung ika’y lumayo

Sasamahan ka sa tamis
Sasamahan ka sa dilim
Sasamahan ka hanggang langit
Sasamahan ka sa tamis
Sasamahan ka sa pait
Sasamahan ka sa dilim
Sasamahan ka hanggang langit
Sasamahan ka

Martyr Nyebera
Kamikazee

Kinukumpleto mo ang araw ko
Sa tuwing inaaway mo
Pagising sa umaga mukha mo
Ang nakita wala pang nagawa
Nakasimangot na at pagsapit ng
Gabi tampo lalong lumalaki
Ang gusto ko lambingan ngunit
May unan na namamagitan

-Ang almusal ay sigawan ang
Hapunan natin ay tampuhan
Ang merienda pagdududa
Pero mahal kita wala ng
Hahanapin pang iba
Handa kong magtiis kahit na
Away away away nato!

Nahuli lang ng ilang minuto
Di na kinibo
Natrapik lang sa kanto di
Naman gwapo naisip mo
Agad nangchicks ako
Simple lang naman ang
Pinagmulan pinahaba ang
Usapan di naman kailangan
Mahabang away na naman

*kahit na sabihin na
Naliligo ka sa sampal
Di mo masasabi na
Hindi kita minamahal
Ang dami mong babae
Wala ka pang trabaho
Ngunit kahit ganon ay
Nandito lang ako
Nandito lang ako…*

A Promise
Chicosci

Now you are my beloved ghost
And here i’ll wait for you to sing
Then we will have eternity
A promise to keep haunting me

This wine
From my veins
These gifts
We’ll take

The sky is ours to keep tonight
Together in this silent sleep
We are the mist that fills the air
Lie still, just be with me

This wine
From my veins
These gifts
We’ll take
And i’ll be
The kiss
The gun
We’ll be draining their blood again

Embrace the rest of me
Well be racing through the night
Again, embrace the rest of me
And then we’ll feast on them, celebrating

I’m not alone
I can feel your eyes on me

I’m not alone
Your soul for all the world to see

Denied another day
Life took you away
…i’ll love you just the same

Cause you are my beloved ghost
And here i’ll wait for you to sing
Then we will have eternity
A promise to keep haunting me
The sky is ours to keep tonight
Together in this silent sleep
We are the mist that fills the air
Lie still, just be with me

I’m not alone
I can feel your eyes on me
I’m not alone
Your soul for all the world to see